Me and She

She...I remember her, remember her sweet face...She...her pure personality, her beauty, her voice, her eyes, heh, her eyes, maybe one of the most beautiful eyes I have seen... I remember when I first met her, that day just changed my whole life...She changed my life...

It was spring I remember, the day was like any other day, fresh air, native hood, my guitar in the corner... I woke up and turned the music on... Led Zeppelin-Ramble on... Then I went to church because that day my friend was baptized. I was still sleepy when I entered the church, but on 2^nd step I saw her...I will never forget her look, she was holding the camera, when I entered she took a glance at me then looked back at the camera... I didn't talk to her then... I got out, after 3-4 hours we had to go to some restaurant, then I realized that I will see her again...damn I will see her again! I was so happy, so excited...my heart was beating fast...

At the evening when I met her again, she got out of the car, and walked in... I was staring at her, I didn't say a thing, but “Hi”, just one stupid hi...oh man! When we were in the hall, they turned Eric Clapton'music on...ERIC CLAPTON! MY FAVORITE PLAYER ! And my favorite song Layla... Since that day I called her Layla... I was looking at her regularly, I was looking at her, she wasn't looking at me, when she was looking at me I wasn't looking at her... Then I sat next to her, and started to talk...

We were talking about music, movies, concerts I remember, books... That girl was so smart! Her knowledge...her beauty...Man she was the most wonderful person I knew...Her smile, attractive smile, not a fake one... Her dance, retro-dance...I remember that, I was just looking at her silently, many people were dancing but no one could dance like she did...

After couple of hours of talking and knowing each other, we talked about music, man her taste of music was terrific...I introduced her to AC/DC and Eric Clapton... We talked about guitars, she said that she's not playing but her fingers are long...That phrase was even funny... I didn't get her number though, I knew her name, what she likes, and how is she, her personality, that was enough for me to enjoy the wonderful day...

I was going back home, in the car, all the time I was thinking about her...her face was in front of my eyes all the time...

After that day, she was with me all the time, helping me when I needed some help, she was with me like nobody else was then... She was with me, She is with me, and she will be... All this time my memories gather round her, every single day, every single moment I spent with her, were the most wonderful moments of my life.

She changed me, changed the “old” Ara...

And now, where am I now? Where? Huh? Foreign country, foreign people, just someone in No-Name town, alone? Not so... I'm never alone, even when I'm alone, still I'm not alone! She is with me still, oh man I adore her...I will never forget her, Never! We never had a fight! There wasn't a lie in our life! She was honest with me all the time, she was with me all the time... And now... dear “She”, I'm in No-Name town, with the people I don't know but I'm drinking with... dear “She” I still keep your photo with me...the photo which you gave me, you near Viktor Tsoy' wall... Dear “She” wait for me, I will come back, even if I won't see you in a place we first met but I will see you soon... I will see you soon dear “She”...

Short chapter from a book "The Case For Christ"

This post is going to be some short chapter from a book called "The Case For Christ". The book is written by Lee Strobel, a journalist who became a Christian after his research about Jesus Christ, and this book is all about his research, where he talked to many scientists, doctors, professors, psychologists and many other people about Jesus. As a Christian, I recommend you to read that book.  So this part is from the interview with Gary R. Collins, who has been studying, teaching and writing about human behavior for thirty-five years. He was a professor of psychology with master's degree in psychology from the University of Toronto and a doctorate in clinical psychology from Purdue University. So now I'll just write everything which is in the book, the chapter is called Psychological Evidence".
 I started out interview by gesturing out the window, where snow was gently falling on evergreen trees. " A few miles in that direction is a state metal institution," I said. "If we were to go over there, I'm sure we'd find some people who claim that they're God. We'd say they were insane. Jesus said he was God-was he crazy too?"

"If you want the short answer," Collins said with a chuckle ,"it's no." 

 But I insisted, this is a legitimate topic that's worthy of further analysis. Experts say that people suffering from delusional psychosis  may appear rational much of the time yet can have grandiose beliefs that they are superlative individuals. Some can even attract followers who believed they're geniuses. Maybe that's what happened with Jesus, I suggested.

"Well, it's true that people with psychological difficulties will often claim to be somebody they're not, Collins replied as he clasped his hands behind his head. "They will sometimes claim to be Jesus himself of the president of US or someone else famous like Lee Strobel". “However,” he continued, “psychologists don't just look at what a person says. They'll go much deeper than that. They'll look at a person's emotions, because disturbed individuals frequently show a inappropriate depression, or they might be vehemently angry, or perhaps they are plagued with anxiety. But look at Jesus:He never demonstrated inappropriate emotions. For instance, He cried at the death of His friend Lazarus-that's natural for an emotionally healthy individual.”

“He certainly got angry at times,” I asserted

“Yes, he did, but it was a healthy kind of anger at people taking advantage of the downtrodden by lining their pockets at the temple. He wasn't just irrationally ticked off because someone was annoying him;this was a righteous reaction against injustice and the blatant mistreatment of people. Other deluded people will have misperceptions,” he added. “They think people are watching them or are trying to get them when they're not. They're out of contact with reality. They misperceive the actions of another people and accuse them of doing things they have no intention of ever doing. Again, we don't see this in Jesus. He was obviously in contact with reality. He wasn't paranoid, although the rightfully understood that there were some very real dangers around him. Or people with psychological difficulties may have thinking disorders-they can't carry on a logical conversation, they'll jump to spoke clearly, powerfully, and eloquently. He was brilliant and had absolutely amazing insights into human nature.

“Another sign of mental disturbances is unsuitable behavior, such as dressing oddly or being unable to relate socially to others. Jesus' behavior and abiding relationships with a wide variety of people from different walks of life.”

He paused, although I sensed he wasn't finished yet. I prompted him to continue by asking, “What else do you observe about Him?”.

Collins gazed out the window at the beautiful and peaceful snow blanked landscape. When he resumed, it was as if he were reminiscing about and old friend.

“He was loving but didn't let His compassion immobilize Him; He didn't have a bloated ego, even though he was often surrounded by adoring crowds; He maintained balance despite an often demanding lifestyle; He always knew what He was doing and where He was going;He cared deeply about people, including women and children, who weren't seen as being important back then;He was able to accept people while not merely winking at their sin;He responded to individuals based on where they were at and what they uniquely needed.”

“So, Doctor-your diagnosis?” I asked

“All in all, I just don't see signs that Jesus was suffering from any known mental illness,” Collins concluded, adding with a smile, “He was much healthier than anyone else I know-including me!”

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